Not dead! I am working on a writeup of my recent travel to India and Kashmir. It is turning into quite an exercise, replete with poetry, carefully manicured photos and some (hopefully) rather interesting wee anecdotes. Perhaps I should split it across multiple posts … anyway, hence the lack of updates. Stay tuned my peeps.
Just added Snow to Sea Level to the Poems section.
* Snow to Sea Level While quiet snow Drops white flakes to Join the shore's black sand Nostalgia falls On the break where Looking out, I stand. Holding an edge A sharp blade, it Grips this cliff-side land And I take pen Try to make you Say you understand. * (c) Cameron Wilding 2009. All rights reserved.
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Just added Her to the Poems section:
* Her Severan kneels close Looking at her eyes Until her hands cease Twisting the sheets. Tongue lashing the sweat from his Left nipple she pushes him back Onto the solid wood frame, And opens her lips To kiss him with passion Where he always loved her most - the triangle of his throat. Her wet pulsing tongue. * (c) Cameron Wilding 2009. All rights reserved.
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The following would not exist without my travel companion Julia, after whom it is named, and fellow poet Samuel Peralta.
In particular, see his brilliant 12 Stones on a Necklace, the twelfth stanza of which I have adapted into the first three lines of this poem.
* 14 July 2009 Samuel Peralta, who initially gave permission to publish this poem with attribution, now feels that it breaches his copyright. This poem has been removed. Sorry :(
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So, after seven weeks travelling around Asia, I am finally back in NZ. Dammit :)
I drafted some posts and new poems on the road. The poetry is pretty much good to go, barring attribution for an inspirational fellow poet. But the posts need some work. I also have a bunch of photos to star & edit.
Given that I have a million admin tasks related to the fifty or so old-skool letters that clogged my box on return (debt-collection notices, disconnection warnings, angry customers, the usual …), it may take a couple days to get something substantial up … watch this space!
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I will be on retreat at the International Buddhism Centre at Wat Phra That Doi Suthep, Thailand for 21 days, followed by a few weeks on a beach with books, notebook and pen :)
So, no updates until early August. In the meantime, perhaps take a look at some original poetry, prose or my earlier retreat diary.
Thanks for stopping by.
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I just added a new poem to the Poems section, an illustration of No Self and how awareness of it sets us apart from others.
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Just added the following haiku to my haiku collection.
Orion wanes west,
My breath steams in the early dark.
It's winter once more.
Lazy old willow
Hangs loose. First to gain his leaves,
Last to lose them.
My coat outlasted
Us. And they don't even make
Them like they used to.
Lovely-haired mantis
Promised salvation I was
Lucky to survive
Unwitting or not,
I cannot dull your silver
Barbs and razor blades.
This dried lavender
Could it be? An old keepsake
From you, now long gone.
Bodies side-by-side
Togetherness we promised
But I was alone
You were unfaithful
To another when with me
Though I did not know.
Strange scum scoured out from
The plughole on my return:
His come in your hair.
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I don’t believe in happily-ever-afters anymore. And it doesn’t feel as though I’m speaking from bitterness when I say that. Just experience really. People have wandering eyes. It’s coded into our gene sequence, and it’s part of our physiology and psychology.
If that sounds extreme, this is going to sound even more extreme: I don’t believe in “love” anymore either :)
It’s all just compassion, filtered through the delusion of a fixed identity. Mangled into some juxtaposition of lust, greed, competitiveness. The compassion is still there, but it gets hidden by the extra, amplified feelings. They are unnecessary and inevitably hurtful. I can share compassion with anyone … e.g., the old guy I did tong-len for the other day. A forty-year-old mother of five. Myself. My dad. A fifteen year-old girl. Why restrict myself to “loving” them first? Can I have sex with any of them? Can I own them? Can I be better than them? No.
Would I want to, knowing that it inevitably causes suffering? No. I wouldn’t wish that on myself or others.
The good news is, when you strip all that away you aren’t left with nothing. You are left with compassion, which is more inclusive than sex or so-called “love” and other such chains we use to bind ourselves to samsara.
That’s not to say I won’t have sex again ;-) Just that I will be doing it for the right reasons. Not out of compassion for myself or others. Instead, it’s like having a shower or eating breakfast. Something we do by nature, leading to temporary bliss. When practised skillfully (and I mean that in all possible senses of the word), sex is another way of expressing ourselves.
But compassion is for everyone.
Note: this material was orginally posted as a reply to Phoenix’s comment on my previous post, Thoughts on Leonard Cohen’s “A Thousand Kisses Deep”.
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I just added a new poem to my collection. Written seven years ago, it’s about life as a single dad, after separation from my son’s mother.
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Microblog- wildlings: #TTH @JohnCMayer is tweeting too hard! http://tweetingtoohard.com/t/1849929508 August 11, 2009
- wildlings: RT @ryderjaphy: "Even if you feel something good, it is just experience; it cannot satisfy you completely." Dainin Katagiri August 4, 2009
- wildlings: Snow to Sea Level just added: http://bit.ly/1Luf8d #poetry #poem #nostalgia August 3, 2009
- wildlings: And i take pen // Try to make you // Say you understand. August 3, 2009
- wildlings: Holding an edge // A sharp blade, it // Grips this cliffside land August 3, 2009
- wildlings: Nostalgia grips // The sea break where // Looking out I stand. August 3, 2009
- wildlings: While quiet snow // Drops white flakes to // Join the shore's black sand August 3, 2009
- wildlings: New poem Snow to Sea Level just added: http://bit.ly/1Luf8d August 3, 2009
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